broken heart

once again i walk through this lonely road

that is so familiar to me

i thought i found the one i've been looking for

but she is the one who crashes my soul

enough for the broken heart

enough for all the suffering 

and i dont want to be plagued by feeling of missing u

coz it kill me at the end

as i predict it happen failed once again

adding to the existing wounds

love come n go

maybe it was fated that i'll always be alone

apparently my last for it just the same

with the one before her let me live without founding of love 

let everyone know im despair

sejak sejak...

sejak2 ak keje kat skolah ney,depa pakat cakap ak makan gaji buta.

hahahha...biaq p la kat ak..keja senang beb.. dok at tmpat keja online ja..hahaha...

tp tyme bz tu bz la weh..ampa kna la fhm ak keja cmna..

keja ak mcm2 kna pkiaq..nk pkiaq sal budak2 lg,life lg n mcm2 lg la...lg lg dan lg..

tp kat skolah ney cikgu2 memang sempoi ar..sporting habis..

mmg kna ngan kpala otak ak la kan...

baru r geng..hehe..wlaupon ckgu2 laki kat skolah ni ada gak yg hensem,tp ak tetap xtertarik la...

yg menariknya ckgu pmpuan jugakk..hahaha..

lau kata depa ajak ak p makan kat kantin,pergh mmg laju ar..

ada la ak bkenan tgk cikgu sorang uh..

dya cikgu kaunseling..wah,mmg mantap ar..hahaha...

tp dya dh kawen dh...lau ak asa malas nk p skolah,msty ak ingat dya,pastu baru ak p..

hahhahaa...inspirasi utk ak rajin mai skolah la crita dya ney..

bukannya ak tangkap cintan pon ngan dya...haha..

bila ak set mind ak kata ak bminat kat dya,baru la ak jd rajin skit..

lau dak,ak mlas la nk bgun pg mai skolah...rasa berat ja pala ney...haha..

werk werkk!

let me go

One more kiss could be the best thing 

Or one more lie could be the worst 

And all these thoughts are never resting 

And your not something I deserve 

In my head there's only you now 

This world falls on me 

In this world there's real and make believe 

And this seems real to me 

And you love me but you don't know who I am 

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand 

And you love me but you don't know who I am 

So let me go, let me go 

I dream ahead to what I hope for 

And I turn my back on loving you 

How can this love be a good thing 

And I know what I'm going through 

In my head there's only you now 

This world falls on me 

In this world there's real and make believe 

And this seems real to me 

And you love me but you don't know who I am 

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand 

And you love me but you don't know who I am 

So let me go, just let me go, let me go 

And no matter how hard I try 

I can't escape these things inside 

I know, I know 

But all the pieces fall apart 

You will be the only one who knows, who knows 

You love me but you don't know who I am 

I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand 

And you love me but you don't know who I am 

So let me go, just let me go 

(you don't know) 

You love me but you don't 

You love me but you don't 

(you don't know) 

You love me but you don't know who I am 

(you don't know) 

You love me but you don't 

You love me but you don't 

(you don't know) 

You love me but you don't know me

complicated life

Assalamualaikumm...jom crita2 jom..

nak habaq ney kat hampa...

macam2 halangan n dugaan dah ak tempuh sepanjang perjalanan ak x berblogging ney..

sedih,hepy,senyum,tawa n semua la ak dh rasa..

xkesah la samada sorang2 atau bersama2 siapa..

macam2 la dh jadi...la ni hidoppp ak sgt complicated...

ohooooo~

taun ney wlaupon complicated,ak bsyukur la sbb ak dpt kerja tetap dgn goverment..

so ak xdak la nk pkiaq banyak sgt sal keja..

ak dh blh tanggung idop ak sndry dh..

n xpyah nk bgantung kat sapa2 dh...

cuma sikit la drpd idop ak,ak kna bgantung dgn ubat2an..

tesion jugak ak kdg2..tp lau ak xtelan ubat,xmkn benda alah tu,

mula la nk jd mcm2 kat ak..hahaha..choy!

ade yg tanya at ak,ak saket apa??

camni la...ak saket biasa2 ja k..

cuma lam kpala ak ney ada arah beku..tu saja..

smpai skrg pn ak tkot nk operate..

sbb ak xsgop nk amik risiko...

la ni ak biaq p ja..lantak la nk jadi apa..

ajal maut di tangan tuhan..

taun ney sbnrnya dh kurang skit saket tu sbb dok makan ubat,

taun2 lepas yg xleh blah..trok gak..

makin tua,makin ok kot kan..hehehe...

n pada kawan2 ak yg olwez disisi ak, ak nk ucapkan

 thank you so much la sbb slalu ada ngan ak 

tyme susah n sng..

grasias oke darling..

..to be continue.. 

long tyme no see

perghh...mmg dah terlalu berhabuk n dah bersawang dah blog ak ney...

tanpa sedaq dh nk dkat setaun ak xupdate blog ney..sebab pe makin usang blog ney??

sbb ak xde msa la nk update..xdan nk tumpu dekat blog ney..

sbuk kje la katakan..

by da way ak rindu gila nk menulis semula..

sbb banyak sgt ak nk luahkan ape yg tsirat n tsurat dalam blog ak ney.. 

makin lama makin bnyak plak story yg terpendam kan...

tyme dh xde sape nk luahkan prasaan,blogla jd mangsa aku..hahhaha...

*aptb*

wahh

wahh..lame gile ak xupdate bLog ak neyh...

dah bersawang ha ak tengok..haish..

almaklumlah bz ngan bisnes skrg ney..xsempat nk online ini punn..

mcm2 la da jd at luar uh..nk ckp pn xtaw plak..

by da way,how about u all?oke ke?

ade sht?life oke?lau oke xpe la...have fun ek..

tu je la kot..nntt2 update lg..taata

rahsia baby MAC..hikhik..aku ler tue.. :p

*berpesonaliti menarik dan menawan

*mudah didampingi

*sangat pemalu dan pemendam rasa

*sangat baik scara smulajadi,jujur,pemurah dan mudah simpati

*sangat sensitif pda perkataan yg dtuturkan n alam persekitaran

*suka pda kedamaian

*sangat peka pda org lain

*sesuai dgn kerjaya yg memberi khidmat pd org laen

*tidak cepat marah & sgt amanah

*tahu mbls dan mengenang budi

*pemerhatian dan penilaian yg sgt tajam

*kecenderungan utk berdendam jika tidak dikawal

*suka berangan

*suka melancong

*sgt manja dan suka diberi perhatian yg sgt tinggi

*kelam kabut dalam memilih pasangan

*suka dgn hiasan rumahtangga

*punyai bakat seni dalm bidang muzik

*kecenderungan pda bnda yg istimewa & baek

*jgn tlalu ikut slera @ perasaan

dulu & kini

..:: DULU | zaman muda2 ::..

..:: KINI | dah besaq matang ::..

hahaha...sape pun ak xkisah ar yg dulu ataupun skrg..

ak still syah yg sama..perangai je mungkin berubah skit kot..

ape pn..now,owner of my heart is shamera..

she's the only one 4 me..

i love u baby!~

im yours..

me | myself | tyme

i can make the rain stop if i wanna

just like my attitude

i can take my laptop record a snapshot

and change ur pointview

i just entered this brand new world

and im so opened hearted

i know i've got a long way to go

but im just getting started

im over my head and i know it

im doing my best not to show it

whatever it takes to be what i was ment to be 

im going to try

cause im living the dream and i know it

im trying my best not to blow it

and i know everything will be fine 

with me , myself n time

i go where life takes me

but somedays it makes me want to change my direction

sometimes it gets lonely

but i know that it's only a matter of my perception 

and baby theres nothing like this moment

to just be real n let the truth be spoken

whatevers broke i can make it unbroken

turn the lead in my hand n the stars stand golden

just try more love of i try more love then i'll find

myself n time..

-just a simple word from my heart-

mr.syah

*aptb

hahaha...the end of the game..congrat to SPAIN!!

adoiayy..melayang duit ak sbb bet ngan isz..

xpe la kan..mmg ler ade yg kalah ade yg menang..xkesah la kan..

tp yg gilenye ak la..sokong Italy tp pkai jerseynye Spain..

wakakakaka..itu org pgey lalang namenye..

lantaklah..suke aty aku la nk pkai ape kan..

jersey Italy ak bsah siang td so ak kai spain la..nk pkai germany kang org ckp tah haper2 sbb 

Spain n Italy yg lawan kan..

nseb ak xbet bnyak kn ngan isz...kahkahkah..melayang jgk wit ak..

berpuasa la ak selama sebulan sbb kalah betting..hahaha..

n to my syg,thanx sbb temankan ak wlpn kejap..

i love u baby!!muaxhmuaxh!!

pasni bola dh abes,b xabaikan biy dh ea..hehe..

tgu 2tahun ag la plak piala dunia..hahaha..

sok ni ak nk p cari jersi team2 len lak nk uat koleksi..

tiap2 hari pakai satu..kahkahkah..

mood menggila tuk perabeh duit mai dah...

ak ngantok trok2 dh ney..

nk join syg mucuk ak tido la...

muaxxhh syg!i love u!!~

papai olz..~

aku tak berdaya

masa yang terindah

kini semua telah berakhir 

karena kau berubah

tak seperti dulu lagi

sampai kapan kamu sering menyalahi hatiku

tak pernah kau tahu begitu sakitnya aku

kau anggap diriku

melihatku dengan sebelah mata

dilema untuk diriku 

mencintaimu mengerti kamu

biarkanku bersalah di depan mukamu

selalu kau membenarkan apa katamu

cintamu membuatku sedih dan tak berdaya

namunku terlanjur cinta

jadian

aku suka dia 

tapi aku xtahu untuk bilang kepadanya bila aku suka

jatuh cinta kepadanya

dia cinta yang pertama 

dia yang bisa membuat aku

merasa tertekan berdebar di dada

diam saat mengingatnya

bulan tolong katakan 

bintang bantu bisikkan kepada dirinya

kalau aku mahu menjadi kekasihnya

aku yakin diriku

nanti pasti membuatnya 

suka kepadaku cinta kepadaku

dan kita akan jadian

harapan

bicara mimpi itu

mengheret ku ke dasar

gelap tanggannya menggapai tanganku

dan munculnya dirimu

dipinggir laman itu

hangatmu menyambut ku kembali

dan ku mengerti 

mengapa masih berdiri

hadirnya siang berteman mentari

dan ku bersama

bintang malam mu mencari kasih ku

harapan

harapan menjadi layu

ingin ku bahgia bersama

menjadi kenangan 

memburu impian masa kita selamanya

dan angin kan memanggil 

bagai ada musafir

hadirnya pergi tiada berjani

mungkin seketika

ku merasa cintanya

bagai dibelai mimpi sempurna

dan taman ini 

tak bererti dan bersemi

tiada indah tanpa mu disini

dan ku jejaki

walau hanya secebis kasihmu 

hatiku..

meratap setinggi gunung 

pasti ku mencari bitangnya 

menjadi cahaya 

menyinar impian hidup kita selamanya

we are young

give me a second i,

i need to get my story straight 

my friends are in the bathroom geeting higher than the empire state

my lover she's waiting for me just across the bar

my seats been taken by some sunglasses asking bout a scar and

i know i gave it to u months ago

i know u're trying to forget

but between the drinks and subtle things

the holes in my apologies u know

im trying hard to take it back 

so if by the time the bar closes 

and u feel like falling down

i carry u home

tonight..we are young

so let's set the world fire

we can burn brighter than the sun

now i know im not

all that u got

i guess that i, i just thought

maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

but our friends are back 

so lets raise a cup 

cause i found someone to carry me home

carry me home tonight..

just carry me home tonight..

the world is on my side 

i have no reason to run

so will someone come and carry me home tonight

the angel never arrived

but i can hear the choir

so will someone come and carry me home

so if the bar closes 

and u falling down 

i'll carry u home tonight

somebody that i used to know

now and then i think of when we were together

like when u said u felt so happy u could die

told my self that u were right for me

but felt so lonely in ur company

but that was love and it's an ache i still remember

u can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness

like resignation to the end, always the end

so when we found that we could not make sense

well u said that we would still be friends

but u didn't have to cut me off

make it like it never happened and we were nothing

and i dont even need ur love

but u treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough

no u did'nt have to stop so low

have ur friends collect ur records and then change ur number

i guess i dont need that though

now u're just somebody that i used to know

now and then i think of all the times u screwed me over

but had me believing it was lways something that i'd done

but i dont wanna live that way 

reading into every word u say

u said that u could let it go

and i wouldn't catch u hung up on somebody that i used to know

merisik khabar

terkapar kapar ku kelemasan 

sakit dilambung ombak kerinduan

di dalam tidur di dalam jaga

diburu oleh mimpi yang serupa

mengapa aku jadi tidak menentu keranamu..

ku menyusuri jalan berliku

membiarkan hari hari berlalu

tiada salam tiada pesan

memaksa diri untuk melupakan

namun wajahmu bermain di mataku tiap waktu

malam ku suram siang ku kelam

ku kegelisahan mencari cari

kemana pergi harga diri ini

bertanyakan berita merisik khabar 

mendengar cerita melaluinya

kau ku hampiri tiap hari

bersama luka di hati..

mengapa aku jadi tidak menentu keranamu... 

selamat hari bapa!

lagu cinta utk abah!

lagu tuk abah..

thanx 4 not showing me ur love!!

"malam ku tidur xlena teringatkan dirimu

terimbas kembali kenangan lalu 

alangkah indahnya bersamamu

mengalir airmataku menemani malam sepiku

ku rindu saat bersamamu sukarnya untuk ku melupakanmu

dahulu engkau berikan cinta mengapa kini engkau berubah

manakah janji akan setia menanti 

jikalau engkau xlagi cinta katakan saja ak xkesah

dari kau terus membuat ku menunggu

takku sangka takku duga perpisahan yang akan melanda 

dah ku cuba pertahankan namun dirimu pergi jua

cintamu bagaikan rembulan 

yang hadir bila malam menjelang

kau hilang bila siang mendatang

begitulah sikapmu..

kau lontar cintaku di tepian 

ku bagaikan hanyut di lautan 

yang lemas di dalam percintaan

dipukul gelombang keresahan"

I WANT SOMEONE WHO JUST WANTS TO BE NEAR ME..

TO WHISPER IN MY EAR,TO HOLD MY HAND,TO PUT MY HAIR BACK BEHIND MY EAR WHEN IT FALLS FRONT. TO WRAP ME IN HIS ARMS AND TELL ME HE LOVE ME.

I LOVE U DAD!~  

T__T

tak bisa memiliki

apakah yang engkau cari..tak kau temukan di hatiku

apakah yang engkau inginkan ..tak dapat lagi ku penuhi

begitulah aku..fahamilah aku..

mungkin aku tidaklah sempurna..tetapi hatiku memilikimu sepanjang umurku

mungkin aku tak bisa memiliki..dirimu seumur hidupku.. 

your guardian angel

when i see ur smile 

tears run down my face

i can't replace

and now that im strong i have figured out

how this world turns cold n it breaks through my soul

and i know i'll find deep inside me 

i can be the one

i will never let u fall

i'll stand up with u forever

i'll be there for u through it all

even if saving u sends me to heaven

it's ok..

seasons are changing n waves are crashing

n stars are falling all for us

days grow longer and nights grow shorter

i can show u i'll be the one

coz u are my

u are my true love 

my whole heart 

please dont throw that away

coz im here for u

please dont walk away n 

please tell me u'll stay...

use me as u will 

pull my strings just for thrill

n i know i'll be okay

though my skies are turning gray

jaga selalu hatimu ~

kau jaga selalu hatimu

saat jauh dariku

tunggu aku kembali..

mencintaimu aku tenang

memilikimu aku ada di setiap 

kau membuka mata

merindukanmu selalu ku rasakan

selalu memelukmu penuh cinta

itu yg slalu aku inginkan

kau mampu membuatku tersenyum 

dan kau bisa membuat nafasku lebih bererti..

kau jaga selalu hatimu

saat jauh dariku

tunggu aku kembali

ku mencintaimu selalu

menyayangimu sampai akhir menutup mata...