cian pakcik ney

tadi mase ak g bLi mkanan tuk mkn malam at kdai 

area umah ak ney,ade la ak nmpak sorag pakcik ni,

kusyuk gile dok mkn...

ak nmpak nsi puth dua pinggang,air dua gelas,

ngatkan dye n kwn dye..

pdahal dye sorg je..

dlm sploh mnit ak dok tgu mkanan ak,baru ak prasan

yg tangan kanan pakcik ney cuma ada 1 jari..

aty ak tersentap jap..

tibe2 ak ase sedih,sayu,pilu..

huhu..

cian pakcik ney kan...

dgn slamber badak nye pakcik ney sambung 

mkan pinggan dye yg kedua..air pn air yg kdua lahh..

kusyuknye la dye mengigit tulang2 tu kan...

sempoi je wlpon tpakse menggunakan 6jari...

ape2 pn ak cian gile tgk pakcik ney..

tsentuh ase aty...kite yg mane cukup sifat ney hargailah...

^_^

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Dulu pernah ada sayang

Namun kini tiada lagi perasaan seperti dulu

Kini tiada lagi kisah

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telah kau sakiti perasaan ku

Biarkan ku pergi

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Biarkan berlalu, rasa cinta ini di hati

Ku tak bisa untuk menahan, aku luka di sini

KEPERCAYAAN/TRUST

1.keyakinan atau akuan akan benarnya (adanya, berlakunya, dll) sesuatu, iman, iktikad:

2. sesuatu yg dipercayai (diyakini, diterima sbg benar, dll); 

3. keyakinan atau rasa pasti akan kejujuran (kebaikan dll) orang;

4. boleh dipercayai, amanah (jujur dll)

5. orang yg dipercayai (diamanahkan sesuatu):

apa yang aku nak tulis kali ini lebih terfokus kepada definisi yang ketiga, iaitu keyakinan atau rasa pasti akan kejujuran orang atau lebih tepat lagi seseorang.....

apabila bercakap tentang kepercayaan, ia adalah suatu perkara yang tidak boleh dijual beli, tiada galang ganti, tidak boleh di ambil....

tapi ia hanya boleh didapati atau diperolehi .....diperoleh dengan sabar, dengan tekad. dan denga keyakinan...

it is something that you gain.. and it is not that easy to get it..... tapi bila dah dapat, jangan sesekali dipersia-siakan, janganlah ianya diuji...

kerana bagi aku... apabila keyakinanku diuji, apabila kepercayaan aku disangsi. maka aku akan terus meragui, dan eraguanku akan lama tersemat di sanubari.....

sekali kepercayaan aku hilang, tidak mudah untuk ia dibina semula. sekali benteng itu pecah, lama masanya untuk ia dibangunkan semula.... dan aku...... beginilah....

jangan menguji, dan jangan sangsi dengan apa yang aku berikan selama ini, bukan mudah untuk aku semua ii, dan jangan salah mentafsir maksud kataku ini.....

manusia memang begini, suka bermain dengan kata-kata, suka berprasangka, suka menguji dan menilai...... tapi sayangnya... ujian untuk aku membuatkan aku ragu.... sangsi...

masa akan menentukan..... menentukan apa.... aku sendiri kurang pasti..... mungkin esok lusa, atau mungkin bulan atau tahun akan menentukan......

dan aku masih termanggu... masih dalam dilema.....

antara keyakinan, ketulusan, kepercayaan,.... semuanya sama sahaja......

missing u - ft island (eng sub)

that such a thing could'nt be possible

that u would'nt do such a thing

that there would be no goodbye

i believe in this

i wonder where it all began

like a puzzle that u cant do

that the start of my earning

was all due to u

im missing u,missing u

the person i miss to death

even missing u so much

yearning so much word i cant say

im missing u,missing u

the person i love to that extend

wont u return to me again

im missing u

there that could be any possible change

that u would do such a thing

those word saying u love me

i believe in them

of course if there is a beggining 

like a movie there's an end

the order of our love n goodbye

were those predetermined too

im missing u,missing u

the person i miss to death

even missing u so much

yearning so much word i can say

my dear love,dear love

u said u could'nt live without me

my sadness n pain

u felt them more than i

my life,my whole life

u were the only one i've loved

how will i..

ever find a way to forget u

i love u

oh i love u!im missing u

wont u return to me again

severely - ft island (eng sub)

without any expression,i let u go like its nothing

every day i try to practice,but its still awkward

secretly...

i try to smile while crying

everyday i practice is but

i think i'll be caught because of my trembling voice

saying goodbye,more than loving u

is hundred n thousand of time more difficult

i'm a fool that cant live without u

what am i supposed to do?

too much!i must've love u too passionately

i cant even breathe because i only look for u

i dont know when i'll be able to stop

i think letting u go is more difficult n crueler than dying

no matter how much im hurt

i spend each day like its nothing

i practiced it evryday trying to get used to it

but i dont think i can forget u after all

even if i fall sick with an incurable illness

if this is how it was going to be 

i shouldnt have love

when will i be able to forget u

foolishly!i must have love u too foolishly

it's only u,i cant even dream of loving another person

im a fool that only knows u

cruely,i am growing apart from u cruelly

whats so hard about saying goodbye

i cant even open my mouth

because u'll be left in my heart deeper than a scar

i dont think i'll be able to erase u

bad woman - ft island (eng subtitle)

its seem i am not ur person

its seem we r not mean to be

to say we should part now

if u say we should just end thing

what am i to do??

as if u r someone who doesnt know me

as if none of it ever was

if we forget it all

what am i to do now

if u are the only one i love

u r bad woman,u r bad woman

in a mans heart,in a mans two eyes

are u causing tears to form?

u r a bad woman,u r a bad woman

i love u,i have nothing but u

leaving me at the end

u r a bad woman

because of u i was happy

because of u i was in love

ur everlasting love,that it was only for me

was what i believe,but..

u are a bad woman!

memories with u,this love of ours

im now trying to erase them all

loving only me,the u im yearning for

after love - ft island (eng subtitle)

i thought u were my love and

i thought u were my evrything

i believed that u would be my last love

i smile only for u

i live only for u

i thought that was happiness

i believe in ur love

its was all lie

its all a lie

ur love was complete lie

this love has hurt me so much

making me this sad

leaving me to cry

you'd say u only love me

that u'd protect me

ur love was a complete lie

u took my entire heart and

u took my love

what is leaving is love

receiving love from one person and

giving ur love to that one person

like a fool,i thought that person was u

the things call love is a lie

the word 'i love u' is also lie

the word 'forever' is also lie

u left the belief that u would come back

where did u go?

u getting further and further away

what r u doing when i love only u

that u would come back to me

i cant love again

even if u hurt me this much

even if u make me this sad

im waiting for only u